Not sure about this lark

So I'm being very sensible and actually taking weight-loss seriously rather than hoping for the best. I've done 2 days in a 5:2 diet regime which I am pretty sure works (as long as you don't go mad on your non-fasting days which could prove my downfall...

Yesterday was a fasting day (well, 400 calories) and it was fine. I told myself last night that I would be  running this morning and sure enough I did; first thing after the usual exercises I headed out into the beautiful sunny morning. 

It was ok. Can I blame fasting for my lack of energy forcing me to walk for a bit? It would make sense I guess but I do think I should have been able to keep going. Once the idea of walking comes into my head, I come over all feeble and just slow right down. 

And now I feel knackered. The bursitis, if that's what it is, keeps hurting (but doesn't get any worse) and my feet are aching now, 5 hours later. But my calfs and Achilles are ok - yay, whoop whoop etc

4.99 km

7m 14 per km

Unbuttered Parsnips

That wasn't a great experience to be honest. Perhaps my attitude of 'well at least I got out for a run' doesn't butter any parsnips... 

I'm overweight and unfit. I don't have the body strength to see me through the run - I had to walk about 4 times. 

5.04km

7m 28s per km

Don't know how I managed over 5km, but apparently I did. And the pace reflects how much I had to walk. It's horrible trying to get back into running after a walk - there is a huge hike in effort required. Mentally as well as physically

So, there it is: a run done - well done me - but unbuttered parsnips. 

pain and effort

More effort than pain to be honest. As usual, the hardest part was getting going. Well, that and the effort of getting up the hills with no breath. But hey ho. Another run under my belt. A very long belt as I have lost no weight. 

I was listening to BBC Radio 6 Music and it was good. They played a fantastic track from the new Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds album: I feel a Spotify playlist coming on. 

4.5km

6m 54s per km 

It's my own fault

Putting on weight and not doing enough exercise: and I wonder why I felt so exhausted today. I had to walk. I had no breath. I was barely jogging at times. 

But I went for a run.

Now I'm wondering if the achievement of 'going for a run' is really enough to make me feel good about myself. I don't feel good about myself. Time is taking its toll, but I am grateful I've got this far and haven't totally given up. 

4.2km

7m 7s per km

It's a mystery

I'm currently with car: it's a rare occurrence and one I'm taking full advantage of. Today's treat was to drive up to the Downs for a run. Always good to have a change of scene, plus it's mostly flat, so it's all good. 

I can't believe I used to run up there from home, go all the way round - at times even up to the observatory for goodness' sake - and be back in time to go to work. 

But not today. 

The mystery about this morning's effort was that I felt just as knackered as I did the last time I went up there - and that was really weirdly tough. I had to walk a couple of times just because I felt so rough. I did have quite a lot of wine last night which is probably the main reason... 

And then - I look at the stats and they're not even that bad. TF?

4.73km

6m 52s per km

Mildly Disappointing

So I did get new shoes and they felt good. 

I have even been for a run in them. 

Well - the mild disappointment is that they're not as padded as I'd hoped. My right foot was still achy like before but perhaps not quite so bad. And now I have new shoes I am obliged to run more. 

it was a struggle getting going this morning - for one thing, it's cold and for another, I am lazy and fearful about putting any effort into exercise. But that's a me issue.

I also walloped my knuckle on a wheelie bin - it wasn't painful then but now it's all swollen up and hurty.

Oh, poor, poor me.

it was also muddy... 

5.01km

7m 13s per km 

I walked for a while so I could find the next episode of the podcast...

Also I am a very slow runner

how it started.. 

how it's going... 

Stupid foot

I think my foot issue might be more limiting than I hoped. It's hurting near the bottom of my second toe - I guess there is a lot of pressure on there. So any new shoes will have to have the padding rather than the off-road (ha!) capability. 

But there I was, bravely running through the pain, and almost got to the 5k mark but stopped cos it was getting too hurty, like it might cause damage. 

4.81km

7m 02s per km

and I'm not disappointed by being slow - there are plenty of people slower and I'm just doing me.